Negative Energy

My head is pounding in pain.
My body energized with negativity.
Just hoping for the rain.
To wash away all activity.

Some feeding off the attention.
The way to form the movement.
In which we all shall walk and talk.
Uproared voice stinging in my ears.

To stand under the rule.
The leader doesn't follow.
How can that serve as a tool.
I choke back my words and swallow.

How long until everything is lost.
Unfair judgement throughout the day.
Never will it make a winning team.
Noticing a pattern reaccurance.

Watch the calendar as the days pass.
Before some will have had enough.
Not realizing just how fast.
You can lose some in this rough.

STILL HOPE!!!

The way you make me feel.
My voice on mute to your ears.
Stomach in knots and ill.
Apart from you one of my fears.
A constant reminder in my head.
Your what my day revolved around.
I believed every word you said.
A place in my heart you found.
But now I question my decision.
All this desire and trust.
To my heart I feel an incision.
A stop to what's happening it must.
Because for days we can fight.
But the on and on is getting old.
The love is blurry in sight.
It's hard to let go with my heart sold.
I can't sleep without your sweet dreams.
Listen to a song with no memory.
Or pick up our every day routines.
Your a shadow cast along my side.
Changing with the rise and fall of the sun.
Like I was carried to shore with the tide.
And you were out on the run.
I want the picture of my sandles.
And your converses to go back in frame.
I want to relight the candles.
Your still a part of me not a game.
I want us to take it apart and put it together.
Like the puzzle piece we almost lost.
For you and me this love forever.
A way for us without any cost.

Slipping

Slipping means only having grasp for a split second.
One second can mean everything or nothing at all.
Climbing right to the top and letting go to fall.

Left step with no right.
Almost attempting is not even giving chance.
Chance to fall, get back up again not just the glance.

What could be ahead.
Ahead leaving the past behind.
Climbing giving chance in your mind.

Learning and becoming stronger.
Living life with curious day to day.
Instead of the same day in every way.

Slipping slipping slipping.
Get traction underneath your feet.
Set the goal you wish you beat.