All That Was Not

Clouds filling the light blue sky,
I lay in the grass wondering why.
Why yesterday left so fast,
and today never seems to pass.
With all this time on my hands,
laying here consumes my plans.
What's left to do,
I want nothing without you.
But without you i grow stronger,
and dream like I did when i was younger.
These dreams I will persue,
with all this support except from you.
The people standing behind not letting me fall,
keep telling me be strong give it your all.
One day I'll come back to this exact spot,
lay in the grass and be thankful for all that was not.
And what I have accomplished and become,
my heart my body now not feeling so numb.