Letting Go of the Dream

Listening to this emotion seep out your heart.

Like you were captured in a pretend dream.

Living someone else's lie to tear you apart.

Three years past three that you cant redeem.

Shallow hearted saying things you believed.

The love was never ending.

Fights laughter tears this time not relieved.

Dishonest to your face her heart she was defending.

She didn't giving a fuck where you were left standing.

She took advantage of every thing you were willing to offer.

Even if her plane took off you were there to be the landing.

Ignoring all advice you were better to not bother.

Your too strong to let it keep you down.

Knowing your the better person when said and done.

Hating to see the wetness stream down your frown.

The worst pain ever experienced you want to run.

It was a lie you were trying to hide.

Now you can release the discontent within.

Raise the standards your want to abide.

Learn to be yourself free to begin.

The dream is over now your free.

Remember your my bright shining star.

Let your anxious heart out to see.

Just how amazing you really are

Working As One

The negativity is not a place like home.

All it does is make people want to roam.

Away from what could be something good.

Not giving it the chance to be the way it should.

As a family, friends, a team.

The positivity is what we need to redeem.

When one thing falls apart.

We have to go back to the very start.

Instead we should find a way to address it.

Not angry words or yelling as the hit.

The harsh or pessimistic attitude.

From anyone no matter the status is rude.

Sure one may have a bad day.

Sorry and please forgive is all you need to say.

High stress seeps within us all.

Mad customers, heavy work load, or never ending call.

We have to step up and perform our best.

As if we are being put to a test.

Because we are never ending and over heard.

We must be aware and not absurd.

A team will play with sweat, blood, and tears.

Help each other out of fears.

A family will comfort and show compassion.

As long as it's done in a mannerly fashion.

Friends will remain beside through thick and thin.

Even if it's the same over and over again.

We may have our fall out.

Lets not make it like a drink of something stout.

Take it with both hands and make it right.

Because we are in each others every day sight.

Learn to work as one.

From the rise and fall of each sun.

Help each other learn and grow.

Not bring each other down to the furthest low.

Not everything is perfect or easy.

Especially with high stress and busy.

All we can do it work towards the optimistic spectrum.

To keep us from falling apart into a crumb.

rappin

Lol hell ya i will cuz i'm just a bad ass at heart. never tear this apart. livin this life with open eyes. with the hello's and goodbye's. no one standing near. and i look into the mirror. and see something i wanna change. not knowing if its in my range. but i'll fuckin run with my heart. from the very start. cuz i'm scared it might fall apart. this picture forms in my head. then i wake from my bed. and thank God it was only a dream. i want more than what it seem. i listen to advice. people tryin to entice. words can go in and out. like the air and its about. as invisable as what will be. till the day i set myself free to believe.that there is more to this dream. and its me i'm livin to be. finally finding the color and light. in the distance in sight. my feet hurtin from this run. i look back at the sun. setting sitting wishing. for the stars to light the way. after i conquere the day. this is what i have left to say. when all the words come to my tongue.its this song that i sung. for you to listen to hear. i pray you stay near.

Negative Energy

My head is pounding in pain.
My body energized with negativity.
Just hoping for the rain.
To wash away all activity.

Some feeding off the attention.
The way to form the movement.
In which we all shall walk and talk.
Uproared voice stinging in my ears.

To stand under the rule.
The leader doesn't follow.
How can that serve as a tool.
I choke back my words and swallow.

How long until everything is lost.
Unfair judgement throughout the day.
Never will it make a winning team.
Noticing a pattern reaccurance.

Watch the calendar as the days pass.
Before some will have had enough.
Not realizing just how fast.
You can lose some in this rough.

STILL HOPE!!!

The way you make me feel.
My voice on mute to your ears.
Stomach in knots and ill.
Apart from you one of my fears.
A constant reminder in my head.
Your what my day revolved around.
I believed every word you said.
A place in my heart you found.
But now I question my decision.
All this desire and trust.
To my heart I feel an incision.
A stop to what's happening it must.
Because for days we can fight.
But the on and on is getting old.
The love is blurry in sight.
It's hard to let go with my heart sold.
I can't sleep without your sweet dreams.
Listen to a song with no memory.
Or pick up our every day routines.
Your a shadow cast along my side.
Changing with the rise and fall of the sun.
Like I was carried to shore with the tide.
And you were out on the run.
I want the picture of my sandles.
And your converses to go back in frame.
I want to relight the candles.
Your still a part of me not a game.
I want us to take it apart and put it together.
Like the puzzle piece we almost lost.
For you and me this love forever.
A way for us without any cost.

Slipping

Slipping means only having grasp for a split second.
One second can mean everything or nothing at all.
Climbing right to the top and letting go to fall.

Left step with no right.
Almost attempting is not even giving chance.
Chance to fall, get back up again not just the glance.

What could be ahead.
Ahead leaving the past behind.
Climbing giving chance in your mind.

Learning and becoming stronger.
Living life with curious day to day.
Instead of the same day in every way.

Slipping slipping slipping.
Get traction underneath your feet.
Set the goal you wish you beat.

Spoken

My face has shown anger
It has turned to a frown
In small space I seem to linger
Beginning to bring my mood down
When I know I need to smile
Realize it could be worse
It only has to last a while
Let my life continue on the course
One day I'll De Ja Vu some dream
Make sure my eyes are open to see
That this is real not just what it seems
It's more in color and smell to me
If I can feel happiness or pain
I'm alive and mostly sane
Knowing the textures will never remain
The same to what I can name
The pictures yet blurry at this time
Still coming to focus in my mind
I'll tell of them on day in a rhyme
Just waiting for that day that I will find
Through the tears that seep
And that of my heart beat
To the music in my ears
Even if alone and free is a fear
Comfort zone broken
My body, mind, heart has spoken

Good Goodbye

Your pinning me down in captivation.
Holding me back from going my own direction.
Making me listen to all your lies.
Your becoming the one that I despise.
Baby you said you couldn’t go on without me.
But I can’t take it I’m setting you free.
The pounding breakin love and hatin.
I’ve given all that you have taken.
You used me to the limit.
I just can’t believe it.

Thought you would have tried harder for my heart.
But baby here I am at a new start.
Your voice replays in my head.
Now I want to rid it of everything you said.

Good goodbye, it’s over, it’s over now, let go, just let go.

I turn around and dry my tears.
Now alone I set out to fight my fears.
Better off without you.
Way better off without you.

Thought you would have tried harder for my heart.
But baby oh baby here I am at a new start.
Your voice is now a whisper.
Only ‘cause I’m a good listener.
But it’s almost faded completely.

Good goodbye, it’s over, it’s over now.
Let go, just let gooooo.

ROWAN

This poem was written for my friend Jessicas new baby girl. The dad is overseas at war but they web cam and talk as much as possible. Rowan is so precious. I went for my first visit to her and her facial expressions were never ending. So cute! Makes me want one.

She’s dressed in purple and green
The cutest baby girl ever seen
Moms wrapped up in her every move
As she continues to get in the groove
Showing daddy her outfits while he’s in uniform
February 8th their beautiful little girl was born
Love illuminates the fresh clean air
As her mommy continues on to stare
Afraid she might miss the simplest of things
Although she misses the man who exchanged rings
Tied together forever love will surround
From cries to laughter, every sound
To watch her grow to hope it’s slow
Only the feeling a family would know

Fought Through Years To Luminating Color

I straighten my stance.
And take one glance.
My lips turned to smile.
Even though gone a mile.
You look back in sight.
Remember the fight.
Your sweat and tears.
Fought through the years.
And here you are emptily tired.
Your body still wired.
Once you lay you head.
And forget what was said.
Your eyelids slowly fall.
Its then you gave it your all.
You dream in black and white.
And wake to the sight.
Of color luminating so bright.
But you cant remember the black of white.
And at this second everything felt so right.
Awake and alive as you inhale.
Young with a future to tell.
The past yet a story to put you here.
And a scar to cover with a tear.
That will dry and disappear away.
And a name to the face of you today.
Carry forward to your destination.
What was an animation.
Now is real life free you see.
All that you ever wanted to be.

Back

An empty page for a long wait.
Waiting for what I'm unsure of.
I just hope I haven't returned to late.
To mix the letters I love.

Even if to others it's only a ramble.
My peace of mind to a piece of white.
Like the letters to a game of scrabble.
Finding what best fits words in sight.

May not score the highest.
But words are hidden or made up.
Some people may be bias.
It's your own drink from the cup.

So here I am again to speak.
Speak what's building inside.
All the emotions will tend to leak.
My life, my own ride.