The Love-intific Notation

Substances can be changed only when things are added or taken away.
A constant will never change shape or form within itself.
Alteration is a necessity when two are becoming one.
What is chemistry built on to you?
Could it be the physical attraction, personality persuasion, or emotional comparison?
The combination of the three build up to the make or break a bond.
If there is no change two can not grow as one.
One might have to let go of things inorder to keep that which they love most.
One might have to aquire more of which they wanted less of.
The relation must be seen on equal balances.
The weight of one heart can not over weigh the other.
You have to give love to get love.
To recieve love is only acknowledged with the love you show unto another.
Comfort is warm, alive, and sensed.
Lost in love, is not wanting to find a way out.
Intervining the three, makes two, become one.

By: Shaina Walker & Taysha Walker (tayshaybay)

Books & Reality

I just want to smother my face in a book
The characters are fictionally true
And they can't be disappointed in you
Nothing seems to enter your mind
Except the black lettering printed deep within its cover
There is no jealousy of how it is read or how often it is picked up
You can accidently bend the pages and there is no cry
Or you can purposely bend them to refer back to something that touched you
The cover does not speak of what's inside
It's just the casing for what lies within
The words do not lie, and they do not change their minds
They are set in key and will not be altered
The details are given for purpose
You may not love the book
But as with anything else you never know what you will love
Until you give love a chance
For days you can contemplate the ending
You can rush to that or take your time
As with life you hopefully will not want to rush to the end but live in the moment
With life is changes and emotions till it reaches its end
Many books for one life
Many page for each day
Many words for each hour
And punctuation for each sentence
I want to bury my face in a book
When everything else is consuming my thoughts
To rid it of the negativity
To become more sincere to my own self
And once I've calmed all of these thoughts
I can breath, I can see, I can hear more clearly
It was the moment within the pages that can help me capture
The lettering within or the voices around me.

The Blind Side

The Blind Side is such an inspiring movie. It is based on a true story, and has such a solid plot. Knowing that you took someone from a horrible lifestyle and made them part of your family, and offered them so much more than they could ever dream is rewarding in its own way. Also, coming from one extreme and going to the complete opposite extreme means that person has a lot of drive, courage, and hope for themselves. This is one thing I do want to do at one point in my life is help someone in need. I want to watch them learn, grow, and guide them in the right direction. In the movie he thrived off passion from the lady who basically help turn his world right side up. Passion is key for succeeding. Those that obtain the passion and want will have a greater chance at reaching their goals. Which in return for all the hard work will open up several opportunities. Watching that movie influenced more passion upon my desires for myself and other people around me. Whether it is to help them out of struggles, or push me to reach out and run for my own success. Great movie...worth buying when it comes out.

Not Just Another Day

The days fly by like the blink of an eye.
Days that we should try to hold on to.
The moments of happiness amongst all of us.
The smiles and laughs we share as a family.
Every once in a while we pause and take time for this.
But not quite often enough.
Not knowing what will come as the sun sets and the moon rises.
The day light settled into the deep slumbers of sleep.
Our dreams and wishes are one to itself.
Then as we rise in the morning thought of just another day.
It's not just another day.
This day could be different.
In a amazing or horrible way.
We never know so we should live each day gently.
Take grasp of the joys we can bring to each other.
Take a photo to carry with us when we are apart.
Because one day I may wake and look beside my bed.
To see someone I wish I would have lived more in depth with.
Knowing that the arguments and silence aren't what I want of my memories.
But the times we breathed each breath and shared our love with one another.
Those will put me at peace when I look over.
The beauty between our hearts weren't forced for the simple shot of a flash.
Our dreams and wishes carried between us on an invisible string.
We should be positively influencing our loved ones.
So when the day comes that we are looking only at the photo.
We known we lived each day as slowly as possible.
And we can still smile for all the memories and love we shared together.
Beside us love brings smiles with the dreams we share.

California Bound

I'm in the same spot I was the night before

Lying lonely and restless

Wishing my best friend was here

She's beneath the city lights far away

She knows me inside out and much more

The one I call crying in such a mess

Different perspective making it so clear

She's so far away in the California Bay

Back to when we were 3 feet high

We fought, argued, disaggreed, and disliked

But we learned to grow together under the summer sun

The distance won't make us break

Used to be the not so continuous goodbye

Now not a day goes by that we haven't talked

Tons of memories to reminisce our fun

An airplane to the west coast I'll take

Wish close in the distance forever we'll stay

Like the moon, stars, and sun shine ray

The conversation, laughter, and tears are keep sake

All of these we will continue to make

She's beneath the city lights far away

She's so far away in the California Bay

The distance won't make us break

An airplane to the west coast I'll take.

Behind The Scene's

Behind The Scene's
What is going on
It's the unknown darkness
Somethings we don't see or understand
Why are there so many unhappy people
Where was this person on their lunch break
Why do tears flood her eyes
Or the loud laughter coming from that group
What was so funny
How is that person still single
So beautiful and sweet
Why does the person stay with them
Being used and not appreciated
Unanswered questions full of curiosity
We may never know
Unless the secrets are revealed
Behind The Scene's
People are judged
People are lonely
People are unique
Open up yourself to open someone else
You may help that person in the simplest way
Behind The Scene's

The Hurt Will Heal

Your beating heart is quieting
Your body lies cold and shaken
Past memories reaccuring
The unwanted is awaken

Learning from that you wish wasn't true
Breaking you to pieces tears flood your eyes
Hoping for someone to show you something new
Not the on and on building of meaningless lies

They have talked down your dreams
Cheated your faith and trust
Coming unsown they've torn at your seams
To conclude their intentions are lust

Fallen to rise once more
Let your heart live and beat
Bring your body from the floor
They are the ones to stay at your feet

Growing up hurts the heart
But it will heal.

1 In The Morning

Step out beneath the blackened sky
Lit from the moon and its shining stars
Beautifully gleaming as the night passes by
Only sound heard is of traveling cars

Yet it's 1 in the morning settling tranquil
Light breeze with a smidge of chill

Outside the crisp clean breath of air
Inside the smell of creamy vanilla blaze
Cities full of pollutions wouldn't think it's fair
Candle light dancing in the dark caught my gaze

Yet it's 1 in the morning settling tranquil
Lost in time the minutes won't stand still

SpEaKiNg AnD wRiTiNg

i'm RIGHTING this to explain
speaking my thoughts not to the TEA
my lips move not saying what i KNEAD
can't grasp the words i want to CELL
TAIL what is going on in my mind
spoke more clearly as something to REED
one on one when you can SEA
i stutter and say you NO what i mean
HEAR i type words so clear
my vocals MEAT hand
from here is my WEIGH to express.

To KNOW and be THANKFUL

I know what its like to be happy
To be sad, scared, loved, angry
I know what it's like to hold and be held
To carry on a great conversation
How it feels to fall and hurt yourself
To lose a loved one that was close to you
What it's like to laugh so hard it hurts
To feel a chemisty so strong
I know what it's like to hear, see, and feel
I am thankful for all of this
I am thankful for my friends and family
For every day I wake
For the satisfaction of knowing I helped someone
The list goes on and on and on
I don't think I could come to an end
So I'm going to end this without having an ending

Take A Second

Heart roaring in the sound of deprivation. In most cases it's wants not needs. We don't realize what lies before us. Blind to the good in life, but take notice to all the bad. When really it's the bad that is here today and gone tomorrow. When there are others trying to find happiness, and not dwelling in the dark hole they can't escape. The hole being of many different possibilities: diseased, homeless, starvation, etc. We take for granted every day that we wake. We have clothes to cover our bodies and shoes to soldier our feet, we have food to nourish our health, and water to keep us from dehydration. Although, one thing can go wrong in our day and make us feel as if everything around us is crumbling down. One thing... Someone's rude comment, the clothes not flattering your figure, car ran out of gas, a headache, and many more that every person complains about throughtout life. What about the baby born with a disease, and fighting for every breath of air. Or the elderly lady that fell and doesn't have the strenght to bring herself back to her feet. Or the children that parents abandoned them, and they have to fend for themselves and their siblings. But, here we are upset that our boyfriend/girl friend broke up with us. Or we didn't eat what was set before us because we don't like the taste of it. Or we take all of our frustrations out on someone else, because it makes us feel better. We can't let the little things go so that we can enjoy and be appreciative of all that makes our lifes better than the person who had no say in what their life had in store. It's something we don't notice on a regular basis. You never knew what you had till you don't have it anymore. If we would just pause a second and think about all of this maybe our day wouldn't seem so bad. Maybe we would be greatful for what we do have. Maybe we would be more optimistic even considering the little negatives that happen throughout the day. I wish people could look at life this way, and care more about those less fortunate. It runs through my mind every day, sometimes even right when I wake up. It makes me try to be a better person, and help people in need.

Fake

Expressionless silence within
Any other day this wouldn't have been
Out trying to prove everyone wrong
Couldn't sing not even to one song

Emptiness depression setting mood
Physically visable where I stood
Emotion sense of emptiness
Personality put aside to rest

Urge to shake it awake
Not me simply just a fake
Couldn't sing not even to one song
Few hours seems to be so long

Finally shook free
Free to be me
Filled with smiles and sound
Hiding but now found

Where It Takes Me

Tonight I was riding home from watching the movie "All About Steve" in Show Low with my brother Trinity and his girlfriend Skye. The conversation came up about what you would want to be if you could be anything as far as career wise. My brother had never really thought about it, and could only come up with 3 different things. Since I was little I have wanted to be in so many different professions. All of them changing with time. Except, for the last nearly 4 years I have wanted to become a massage therapist. I came close to enrolling in the school and taking the big step to the first step of becoming a massage therapist, but I let people talk me out of it. Still I have this dream and see myself happy persuing this. I don't want to let people hold me back from it. I have the people supportive of it on my right shoulder and the people not supportive on my left shoulder. The left shoulder being much heavier. I am young, but not staying any younger than yesterday. If I want something I have to apply myself. Not worry about all the people that are anti my wants. I know if I don't love being a massage therapist I can always try something else. My family always jokes about me being a full time college student for the rest of my life because I am so undecisive. This is one thing I have had run over and over through my mind, and I want to live this dream instead of continuously dreaming it. Whether or not the family and friends closest to me agree with my decision or not. I need to not care, but I've always been one to want opinions, and I am beginning to find out that's not always a great thing. It's not just going to massage school that I have to figure out, but also where, when, job while going to school, and with someone or not. Once I feel like I have a plan it all gets washed away. What I want is to move away, attend school, live with someone close to me, have a good job, and learn and live a life full of inspiration. I want to make great memories. I want something more for myself. If that means I have to go into this without certain peoples support then so be it. I will show them that I when I have a goal I will also have a drive. I'm going to follow my dreams and see where it takes me =)!!

Happy

Someone once told me that you have to choose

What you win or lose

You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances

You might feel the pain

Don’t you love in vain ’cause love won’t set you free

I could stand by the side

And watch this life pass me by

So unhappy

But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?

So what it I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge,

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

Cuz I'm just trying to be happy

I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly

Just can’t let it go

Just trying to play my role

Slowly disappear

But all these days

They feel like they’re the same

Just different faces different names

Get me out of here

I can't stand by the side

Ooh, no

And watch this life pass me by

Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?

So what if i break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge?

My feet run out of ground I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound don’t care about all the pain in front of me

I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy

Oh

So when it turns that I can't see

Like I'm a stranger on this road

But don't say victim

Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge?

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy

Happy

I just wanna be

Oh

I just wanna be

Happy.

By Leona Lewis

I love this song! It made me so happy. Goes well with my life...

....

Mind scattered several directions
Voiceless unexplainable emotions
. . . .
Not unhappy, but not satisfied
Searching an unknown guide

Fade, fade, fade

When will I get it right
Always being wrong
My feelings and doings
Fade, fade, fade away
Getting on track to fall off again
Having a want a desire
Then letting it fade away
Not completely but temporarily
Putting me right back in the same position
One step forward one step back
The dance I'm dancing
No rythm just a stick figure movement
I want to twirl dip spin
A beautiful free enticing dance
I want to build on it and grow
I don't want to fade
Fading seems easier
I want the challenge
Why do I keep letting it fade
Fade, fade, fade away

Love Quotes

I know my blog is full of love. Someone told me today that love is the strongest most expressed emotion. I downloaded an app on my ipod called love quotes. Here are a few.

"You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving."- Amy Carmichael

"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."- Aristotle

"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."- Robert Heinlein

"Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one."- John Keats

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart." - Helen Keller

"To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed."- Unknown

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."- Sam Keen

"If you love me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever."- Unknown

"There is no remedy for love but to love more."- David Thoreau

"When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams." Dr Seuss

"Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never. . . never forget it."- Curtis Judalet

Allow

Are they out there? Is it possible? I believe they are & I believe it is. There are so many doubts wandering about in each persons head that they don't know who or what to believe. I think for every positive relationship there are 5 times as many negative. Why would this be? People are confused, don't know what they want, or afraid to allow either pain or love into their lifes. Not everyone is the same as the last person that it didn't work out with. Not everyone is going to want the same thing as you. Not everyone is going to give you the respect and love you deserve, but that is the reason that person is not everything to you. It's not going to be easy, but it will be worth it to allow yourself to love. Being picky isn't always bad, but one person may be lacking in certain areas and above average in other areas. There has to be a little slack. NO ONE IS PERFECT! Personality is key, physical appearance is a bonus. I do believe there has to be an attraction, but you can't judge a book by its cover. Everyone does need to have standards, because without them they are lowering themselves to something they are better than. Why take a step back? Keep moving forward. Things in the past are there for a reason. Letting go of someone who once meant everything to you is a process. It can't happen overnight. You have to continue on to make yourself happy, and not sit back hoping that person could be who you want them to be. Let memories be memories! Allow your heart to open up to someone carrying the qualities you melt for. It may or may not work out in the end, but you will never unless you allow.

Bringin It Back

My rhyme'n ain't so tight
Da words don't flow right
Losin my feel da touch
Haven't listen ta da music much
Hurr I go bay bay
Imma do what you say
Hold you tease you
Anything you want boo
You know it ain't a game
But I'll play anything you name
Need ta slow down da beat
We startin ta bring da heat
I'm gettin da flow
Tellin me what i wanna know
Skin tight
Holdin all night
Fall asleep ta da sound of your heart
Dat was my favorite part

Given

How much can you give till it's all given away?
What words haven't you used to tell what you have to say?
Every word every line filled with emotion.
Growing and soaking in passion.
I don't understand why your still alone.
Given your words, heart, your every bone.
Nothing negative leaves your lips.
How many days can pass till your body rips?
Tearing you inside out without physically touching.
Standing empty handed holding nothing.
Love is difficult in this game of life.
Keep playing one day you'll win put down the knife.
It's hard and unwanted this pain you feel.
You've never known love so real.
But what's not meant to be is for someone else.
You have to be strong and fend for yourself.
It's not the path you want to venture down.
See with your eyes because it's silent no sound.
Maybe it will turn 180 degrees.
You'll never know when your body is at freeze.
So keep walking, listening, and seeing.
Eventually you'll come to what will end up being.

Piecing Together Lyrics

And I'll borrow words from all my favorite paragraphs
To write a ballad while we say the things
we hope would mean the most to me. Mayday parade
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams. Lonestar
I woke up this morning
with this feeling inside me, that I can't explain. Rascal Flatts
I wanna show you everything inside of me,
Like a nervous heart that is crazy beating. Colbie Caillat
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand. The Goo Goo Dolls
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you. Kanye West
We had our first words
first argument, gotta let it go
cuz it could possibly affect what our future holds. Akon
I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away. Amy Lee & Seether
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for y ou through it all. The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Fall into these arms of mine
I'll catch you every time you fall. Clay Walker
If you reach deep inside you'll see my heart is true. 12 stones
And I know what they say
About all good things
Will they come to an end. Saving Abel
But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all. Skillet
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into. Lifehouse
Asking questions like you already know
we're fighting this war, baby when both of us are losing. Ne-Yo
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away. Paramore
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselfs? Switchfoot
Everything's so blurry, and everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty, and everything is so messed up. Puddle of Mudd
I keep playing your part
But it's not my scene
Want this plot to twist
I've had enough mystery. Jack Johnson
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know. Taylor Swift
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we? No Doubt
This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory. Sugarcult
All we know is distance
We're close and then we run
Kiss away the difference. The Fray
Cold, but I'm still here.
Blind, 'cause I'm so blind.
Say never, we're far from comfortable this time. Evans Blue
I'll be just fine pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got. The Used
And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say. The Pussycat Dolls
I'll never find my heart
Behind someone else. 3 Doors Down
It's not a bird, not a plane, it's my heart and it's going gone away. Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson
Too later, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you. Mayday Parade
It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah. P!nk
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to (ooh ooh)
It'll all get better in time. Leona Lewis
This is so difficult for the both of us
I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us
Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game. The Spill Canvas

Bright Stars

Where would I be without the few
one's so genuine and true
That help keep me strong
when things seem wrong
Alleviate the confusion and pain
they're here keeping me sane
They can be so far away
in my heart's where they stay
Knowing my deepest secrets
can tell when I'm at my weakest
Accepting who I am and nothing less
even when im a destructional mess
I love these people you know who you are
keep on shining I look up to you my bright star.

Strength Passion Determination

Personal affair in solitude
Noone would seem to understand
Face to the pillow drowning the sobs
Body longs to be held for comfort
Falling tears wet then dry
Recollections from times previous
The emptiness settled in
The heart throbbed one pulse
Sounds and emotions amplified
A voice breaking through distraction
Strength leads onward toward desires
Passion captivates significance
Determination to supplement life
Releasing that which does not support
One pessimist vs. multiple optimist
Advance to untouched territory
Learn and live something sublime
Deserved without exception
Single standing not alone
Guidance to endure complex decision
Strenght Passion Determination

Pictures

Pictures cross through my mind
I don't know where I stand
But its no where near here
A swift flash of blurriness

In the future searching to find
High in the mountains or at sea level sand
Long black road I let my car steer
Mine is as good as anyones guess

Feel as if I've been put on hold
With no one to blame but myself
Now wanting to further progress
But the direction to go unknown

To this small town I've started to mold
Handing out drugs to improve someones health
So comfortable I don't even stress
Months to days to hours to minutes flown

The clock has ticked and ticked
DING don't sit back and wait
Have to make something happen
It's not going to come to me easy

Thought of mind finally fixed
Might not be forever but at any rate
It's better than never been
GET WITH IT BUSY BUSY!

Come Your Way

When you care about someone there are things you express
You don't ramble on in few words
They should have meaning and feelings
Tuck deep inside that's special
Something different than nothing
Being played with in confusion
Not knowing the standing
Now it matters but later
It's just a piece of what put you where you are
Learn from the good and bad
What was taken away can be replaced
Time, openness, and will
First it's hard but you gain dignity
Let go of what wasn't meant to be
Allow for something wonderful
It will come your way
One day it will come your way
Be patient it will come you way

All That Was Not

Clouds filling the light blue sky,
I lay in the grass wondering why.
Why yesterday left so fast,
and today never seems to pass.
With all this time on my hands,
laying here consumes my plans.
What's left to do,
I want nothing without you.
But without you i grow stronger,
and dream like I did when i was younger.
These dreams I will persue,
with all this support except from you.
The people standing behind not letting me fall,
keep telling me be strong give it your all.
One day I'll come back to this exact spot,
lay in the grass and be thankful for all that was not.
And what I have accomplished and become,
my heart my body now not feeling so numb.