Where It Takes Me

Tonight I was riding home from watching the movie "All About Steve" in Show Low with my brother Trinity and his girlfriend Skye. The conversation came up about what you would want to be if you could be anything as far as career wise. My brother had never really thought about it, and could only come up with 3 different things. Since I was little I have wanted to be in so many different professions. All of them changing with time. Except, for the last nearly 4 years I have wanted to become a massage therapist. I came close to enrolling in the school and taking the big step to the first step of becoming a massage therapist, but I let people talk me out of it. Still I have this dream and see myself happy persuing this. I don't want to let people hold me back from it. I have the people supportive of it on my right shoulder and the people not supportive on my left shoulder. The left shoulder being much heavier. I am young, but not staying any younger than yesterday. If I want something I have to apply myself. Not worry about all the people that are anti my wants. I know if I don't love being a massage therapist I can always try something else. My family always jokes about me being a full time college student for the rest of my life because I am so undecisive. This is one thing I have had run over and over through my mind, and I want to live this dream instead of continuously dreaming it. Whether or not the family and friends closest to me agree with my decision or not. I need to not care, but I've always been one to want opinions, and I am beginning to find out that's not always a great thing. It's not just going to massage school that I have to figure out, but also where, when, job while going to school, and with someone or not. Once I feel like I have a plan it all gets washed away. What I want is to move away, attend school, live with someone close to me, have a good job, and learn and live a life full of inspiration. I want to make great memories. I want something more for myself. If that means I have to go into this without certain peoples support then so be it. I will show them that I when I have a goal I will also have a drive. I'm going to follow my dreams and see where it takes me =)!!